Sustaining our Sense of Purpose
I forget about time whenever
I write.
I even forget about food,
and if not for my wife and daughter who would constantly remind me that the
table is ready, I could go on writing and writing without lunch or dinner.
But there are times when
writing can be very difficult.
Questioning my purpose
Questioning my purpose
It’s not about the typing,
or the complexity of the topic, or the absence of inspiration that makes
writing difficult.
Difficulty comes when I
start to question the purpose of what I’m doing.
Like for example, this blog.
I could go on and on about finding focus, living with simplicity, and
discovering purpose in life, but to what end and why?
Would people care about what I’m writing? Would
people benefit?
Sometimes those thoughts
come to my mind and suddenly I’ve lost strength, or desire, or hope in what I’m
doing.
Lightness of step
James Michener, in his novel
The Covenant, tells of a remarkable
Bantu custom. When lack of rain and green pastures forced Bantus to move great
distances to find new watering spots and hunting terrain, the women joyfully
carried large eggs containing their essential water supply. While the eggs were
full and heavy the women walked with light step. But as the days dragged on and
their physical burden became lighter, their hearts became heavier and their
gait slower. For with lightness of their physical burden, their hope of
survival slowly ebbed away.
Sense of purpose
Likewise, we can have light
hearts although we’re doing something difficult. And we can also have heavy
hearts even when our burden is light.
It has everything to do with
our sense of purpose.
Whenever we begin to doubt
the wisdom and eternal implications of what we are doing, our strength begins
to falter.
That’s when I start to ask
myself some hard questions:
·
Why did I start this blog in the first place?
·
What motivated me?
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Am I doing this because it is right or I just want to be famous?
There are many more
questions, some more painful, but necessary to bring me back to the reality of
my purpose.
How do I get back my fervor for
writing and sustain my sense of purpose?
I remind myself that what
I’m doing is for something greater than me. A small, simple contribution for
that something greater than the measly words I put on paper.
I remind myself that I’m not
an accident, and that God created me this way because He wants me to do
something for Him.
And that somewhere, somehow,
somewhen, someone is going to read something I’ve written here… and it could
save his life…
It is then that I go back to
writing, more motivated and inspired and purposeful than ever before.