The World Feels Different To Me

by Raymund Tamayo

The world feels different to me. My thoughts and perspectives often don't match those of the people around me, making me feel disconnected. It's like I see the world differently, like I’m living in another dimension.

This difference isn't just about having different opinions; it's about how I see and understand the world. While most are interested in trends, fleeting interests, shallow interactions, and other people’s lives, I'm drawn to deeper, more lasting ideas. This makes it hard to find common ground during everyday conversations.

To get by, I've learned to keep my thoughts to myself. Sharing them often leads to misunderstandings or confusion, not out of meanness, but because they simply don't fit the usual way of thinking. It's easier to stay quiet than to keep explaining or defending a viewpoint that feels strange to others.

This quietness can be both good and bad. On one hand, it lets me explore my own ideas and grow. On the other hand, it is lonely, too, as meaningful connections are rare. Very rare, actually. The challenge is to connect with others without hiding who I really am.

It feels like I was not made for this world. I see and understand things clearly, but I feel separate. This makes me strong and independent, but also lonely. But sometimes, I come across those unique (and for me quite gifted) people who truly understand me, and it's amazing! They get me even though I may sound different, and those rarest of times never fail to amaze me.